panic disorder
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Wednesday, March 5th, 2008It’s been on me now for months now. It sits in the middle of my head, buzzing like some sort of damned demented tsetse fly. I am defeated for no reason whatsoever. I can’t smile, at least not for myself, and my eyes are always heavy.
I know that part of the solution is to move [...]
Something in my belly
Tuesday, February 19th, 2008There is something in my belly, and I finally know what it is. My belly is the storage for very intense emotions, ones that were stuffed far away not to ever be seen, or heard by anyone.
I’ve figured out that when the belly is disrupted in any way, I break out into a serious [...]
Strike three
Sunday, November 25th, 2007I am so frustrated and exhausted, I have no idea where to even begin. Remember how I was waiting for the Wellbutrin to kick in? Well, it didn’t. Or rather, it did, with disastrous results.
After two months of being on it and noticing no change in the near-crippling depression I was experiencing, my doctor decided [...]
Reinforcing the “Hormonal Female” Stereotype
Saturday, November 17th, 2007You’re welcome. And, I’m sorry. But I think I’m doing just that.
After a visit to the psychiatrist in which I described my symptoms (regular physical symptoms of panic/anxiety with no underlying emotional connection or distress) and he responded by refilling my Xanax prescription, and dismissed the idea of checking my hormone levels, I went back [...]