jess
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Monday, October 8th, 2007The third time i tried to kill myself was just three months ago.
It was my most serious attempt. The one that almost took. The one where i had the most to lose.
I had been depressed for two years. Medicated for one. The year leading up to my suicide attempt was the hardest of my [...]
crane wife
Saturday, September 1st, 2007I am going to say it. I am so scared of these words.
I am manic. I am in a manic episode. I am acting irrationally. I have been high of energy, high of life, happy.
Too happy.
It hurts my heart so much to say these words. I thought i was better. I thought i was recovering [...]
the second time
Saturday, August 25th, 2007The second time i tried to commit suicide i was 24 years old.
I had spent the nine years in between my first and second suicide attempt barely getting by, Sometimes i had good moments, even months.
When i was sixteen i began a ten year struggle with self-harm, addictive behaviours and engaging in activities that were [...]
fading
Monday, August 20th, 2007fading, you are
I saw dead people. And they suck.
I have never been to an open casket funeral. That was the thing that first broke off a piece of my heart today and smashed it on the floor.
I went alone to the funeral, after at least an hour of outfit changes, which was strangely important to [...]