jess
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Wednesday, February 6th, 2008I have been on medication for two years. I have tried drugs at other points in my life, but never stuck to them, or became addicted to them. Ativan, lorazepam - they are my friends. Too much so. My addictive personality. I can’t use moderation with those “downer” type meds. So the doctors just don’t [...]
you act like you don’t even know me
Thursday, January 24th, 2008If you knew me you would know that from the outside i used to seem like i had it all together.
If you know me now you know that in the past year i look like a disheveled mess. That my life has fallen apart over and over again. That i nearly died. That i lost [...]
the fourth time
Wednesday, November 14th, 2007The fourth time i tried to kill myself hasn’t happened yet.
I am making some of the hardest decisions i have ever had to make to ensure that it doesn’t happen again. Today my husband asked me to come home, he pleaded. He asked me to come back and make an effort to work things out. [...]
after
Wednesday, November 7th, 2007When in one single year you are hospitalized twice and attempt suicide once it is difficult for most people to maintain a friendship with you. It is difficult for your husband to maintain a relationship with you. You become a social pariah. It’s not that people don’t care, or don’t want to help. They just [...]
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