Comments on: Because If You Tell Someone, You Know You Won’t Do It… http://realmental.org/archives/71 RealMental is a safe community where you can share and learn about mental health and everything that goes along with it. Sun, 29 May 2011 01:29:27 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.3.2 By: anonymous (aka Charm) http://realmental.org/archives/71#comment-287 anonymous (aka Charm) Wed, 26 Sep 2007 00:28:28 +0000 http://realmental.org/blog/archives/71#comment-287 Response to comments: I have been taking Lexapro now for about 120 days and have been regularly participating in therapy with a psych that is wonderful. I agree being on meds IS NOT easy but it sure as hell is easier than feeling the way i did before taking them. And as much as I thought about suicide it never occured to me that I might actually follow through with it. It was the idea of harming someone else by my actions that always stopped me. Thank you all for your support! Response to comments:

I have been taking Lexapro now for about 120 days and have been regularly participating in therapy with a psych that is wonderful.

I agree being on meds IS NOT easy but it sure as hell is easier than feeling the way i did before taking them.

And as much as I thought about suicide it never occured to me that I might actually follow through with it. It was the idea of harming someone else by my actions that always stopped me.

Thank you all for your support!

]]> By: savia http://realmental.org/archives/71#comment-286 savia Tue, 25 Sep 2007 22:06:39 +0000 http://realmental.org/blog/archives/71#comment-286 Once you try them and they work, you will wonder why it took you so long to do it. You will look back on all the pain and wonder how you ever lived that way. I'm not saying going on the meds is easy. I cried my head off when I made that decision, and I've had a few bad reactions to ones that I've tried, and that certainly hasn't been fun. But I know I need to be on something. And I'm not giving up. I just wanted to let you know that it's not as scary as it seems, and once you go there and start talking about it with people, people who may not even be your friends (yet), you'll discover just how many others out there have felt this way and have had to make the same difficult decision. Much love to you. Please get some help. You don't need to live this way. Once you try them and they work, you will wonder why it took you so long to do it. You will look back on all the pain and wonder how you ever lived that way.

I’m not saying going on the meds is easy. I cried my head off when I made that decision, and I’ve had a few bad reactions to ones that I’ve tried, and that certainly hasn’t been fun. But I know I need to be on something. And I’m not giving up.

I just wanted to let you know that it’s not as scary as it seems, and once you go there and start talking about it with people, people who may not even be your friends (yet), you’ll discover just how many others out there have felt this way and have had to make the same difficult decision.

Much love to you. Please get some help. You don’t need to live this way.

]]> By: Bipolarlawyercook http://realmental.org/archives/71#comment-284 Bipolarlawyercook Tue, 25 Sep 2007 20:31:31 +0000 http://realmental.org/blog/archives/71#comment-284 Like CJ and Beca said-- there is nothing wrong with you-- a chemical imbalance is not your "fault." You are not a bad or weak or defective person because you have a chemical disorder. It's a sheer miracle that all that DNA gets up and walks in the first place-- things are bound to get a little messy. Think of it like diabetes-- you'd take your insulin every day, right? There's nothing to be ashamed of, and lots of little moments of beauty to look forward to. I don't pretend my life is happiness and light now that I've gotten my depression properly dxd as bipolar, but I am better able to get out of bed every day, do the work thing, laugh at jokes, call my friends, and appreciate a random beautiful thing that may fall into my day. Wishing you the same, soon. Like CJ and Beca said– there is nothing wrong with you– a chemical imbalance is not your “fault.” You are not a bad or weak or defective person because you have a chemical disorder. It’s a sheer miracle that all that DNA gets up and walks in the first place– things are bound to get a little messy. Think of it like diabetes– you’d take your insulin every day, right? There’s nothing to be ashamed of, and lots of little moments of beauty to look forward to.

I don’t pretend my life is happiness and light now that I’ve gotten my depression properly dxd as bipolar, but I am better able to get out of bed every day, do the work thing, laugh at jokes, call my friends, and appreciate a random beautiful thing that may fall into my day. Wishing you the same, soon.

]]> By: Beca http://realmental.org/archives/71#comment-283 Beca Tue, 25 Sep 2007 17:29:27 +0000 http://realmental.org/blog/archives/71#comment-283 Sweetie, meds...get some. It's a disease, you have a chemcial imbalance, it's not normal to feel that way. It feels so good to feel good again, even if it means I take 2 pills a day for the rest of my life, so fucking what??? it's a pill, it makes my brain function like other people's brains do naturally and they don't even realize how lucky they are... Sweetie, meds…get some. It’s a disease, you have a chemcial imbalance, it’s not normal to feel that way. It feels so good to feel good again, even if it means I take 2 pills a day for the rest of my life, so fucking what??? it’s a pill, it makes my brain function like other people’s brains do naturally and they don’t even realize how lucky they are…

]]> By: Suebob http://realmental.org/archives/71#comment-282 Suebob Tue, 25 Sep 2007 17:21:04 +0000 http://realmental.org/blog/archives/71#comment-282 Please don't step in front of a bus or train. My mom saw a man do that when she was 6 and she still has PTSD about it. Don't kill yourself in other ways, either. But I'm just sayin' Please don’t step in front of a bus or train. My mom saw a man do that when she was 6 and she still has PTSD about it.

Don’t kill yourself in other ways, either. But I’m just sayin’

]]> By: CJ http://realmental.org/archives/71#comment-278 CJ Tue, 25 Sep 2007 16:11:32 +0000 http://realmental.org/blog/archives/71#comment-278 Really, if you are feeling this badly, you should certainly think about medication. It sounds like you are getting worse and not better. I mean, I understand your aversion to medication. I always felt like it was good for some people, but not me. I always hated taking pills, even aspirin. But when I finally got into that suicidal spiral and knew that I wouldn't make it home that day from work, I knew I had to get help. At that point, I was so desperate for a change that I'd have done anything the doctor asked me to do. In the end, I feel so much better that I've realized taking a pill is a very small price to pay for normality. Really, it only takes a second out of each day to do, and the rewards are so great. I'll even admit that I had to take a few antidepressants before they discovered it was actually bipolar disorder and not depression, but I felt a change in my mood within just a few days. But I do feel like I got my life back and I can actually enjoy myself with family and friends instead of that dark cloud always hanging over me, threatening to take over. I can get through routine day-to-day activities without suicide crossing my mind even once. I mean, the fear just isn't there. It's not like I'm just controlling it, but literally these things just don't occur to me anymore. Every now and then I'll get a flashback and remember something, "Oh, I remember I couldn't do this before because I'd be afraid of " and I'm so glad to not have to worry about that anymore. I hope you are in therapy, too. If not, there are support groups everywhere for people with depression. I know it's hard to motivate yourself to do something when you feel like that as I had a hard time myself, even if it was something I knew was for my own good. But you need to make a change in your life and it might as well be one that can really make a difference. Really, if you are feeling this badly, you should certainly think about medication. It sounds like you are getting worse and not better. I mean, I understand your aversion to medication. I always felt like it was good for some people, but not me. I always hated taking pills, even aspirin. But when I finally got into that suicidal spiral and knew that I wouldn’t make it home that day from work, I knew I had to get help. At that point, I was so desperate for a change that I’d have done anything the doctor asked me to do. In the end, I feel so much better that I’ve realized taking a pill is a very small price to pay for normality. Really, it only takes a second out of each day to do, and the rewards are so great. I’ll even admit that I had to take a few antidepressants before they discovered it was actually bipolar disorder and not depression, but I felt a change in my mood within just a few days. But I do feel like I got my life back and I can actually enjoy myself with family and friends instead of that dark cloud always hanging over me, threatening to take over. I can get through routine day-to-day activities without suicide crossing my mind even once. I mean, the fear just isn’t there. It’s not like I’m just controlling it, but literally these things just don’t occur to me anymore. Every now and then I’ll get a flashback and remember something, “Oh, I remember I couldn’t do this before because I’d be afraid of ” and I’m so glad to not have to worry about that anymore. I hope you are in therapy, too. If not, there are support groups everywhere for people with depression. I know it’s hard to motivate yourself to do something when you feel like that as I had a hard time myself, even if it was something I knew was for my own good. But you need to make a change in your life and it might as well be one that can really make a difference.

]]> By: Ada http://realmental.org/archives/71#comment-274 Ada Tue, 25 Sep 2007 12:25:05 +0000 http://realmental.org/blog/archives/71#comment-274 Hey, I do that appointment making thing too. I can't tell you how many times I've stayed alive SOLELY because I made a commitment to show up somewhere, anywhere. The doctor, the dentist, the counsellor; the who doesn't really matter. It's the idea that I'm expected to be somewhere at a particular time and if I'm not, someone might worry. It works, and eventually, after weeks and months, and sometimes years of living like that, suddenly you realise that you're living for other things as well. A movie, a coffee with a friend, a good book. It does get better, but until then, the appointment thing is an excellent strategy for staying alive. Hey, I do that appointment making thing too. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve stayed alive SOLELY because I made a commitment to show up somewhere, anywhere. The doctor, the dentist, the counsellor; the who doesn’t really matter. It’s the idea that I’m expected to be somewhere at a particular time and if I’m not, someone might worry. It works, and eventually, after weeks and months, and sometimes years of living like that, suddenly you realise that you’re living for other things as well. A movie, a coffee with a friend, a good book. It does get better, but until then, the appointment thing is an excellent strategy for staying alive.

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